Female Drivers

I am one.... and very likely being cursed and swore at by others too though I hope I do not make such mistakes.

Morning drive to go back after dropping hubby to work. There is this car that is driving on the last lane.. slowly. So I cut into the 2nd lane instead but I noticed she probably realised she is not driving at a speed suited for the last lane hence she signalled to cut into the 2nd lane. From my rear view mirror, she had on her signal light since Tanjong Pagar area on the ECP flyover and finally managed to cut in near the Esplanade!! I noticed her 'P' plate so I guessed she is probably not confident enough. Then again, if so, why drive on the last lane to begin with?

Then I went to run some errand at Compasspoint. On the way back, I met yet another interesting female driver. At a traffic light, she went to the right lane while I decided to go to the left lane, partly because I will still need to stick to the left lane at the next traffic light and I can see road work at the right lane for the next traffic light. While both cars are the first line of vehicles, waiting for the red light to turn green, that female driver kept inching forward, I bet she probably wants to cut me once the light turn green. I always find this behaviour funny, does inching forward every few seconds really help you? Not to be complacent, both car brands are the same BUT my car is definitely more superior in terms of power. Unless you think my skill is really so poor as not to be able to accelerate faster than you on a straight road? What are you thinking? Anyway, yes, my vehicle surged forward once the light turned green hence she can only cut in behind me. And guess what, she needs to turn left at the next traffic so why she cannot move into the left lane to begin with? She was all along infront of me except I decided to move into the left lane at the traffic junction in anticipation of my route and the road work.

So are female drivers really worse of drivers?

Happy~~~

Hahahaa.. A day of Posts after such long long long dry spells or rather being lazy =P

Anyway why am I happy today? Because my trader told my supervisor she is quite happy with my performance. Yeah! It does make my day! I am new to this company, slightly more than 1 month only. But I came with experience and I heard alot of people telling me that me that this trader is very demanding and not easy to work with. While I am trying my best, I am still fearful that I cannot make the mark. And not forgetting that I have a large shoes to fill. I have to admit, my supervisor is really capable. But she is going on maternity leave soon, in April. So I do not have long time to be independent. This company has lots of processes, systems, compliance, checks and balance. So I am also stressed and wary of what can be done and what cannot be. Whilst previously things are a straightforward can-do, my concern that the same may not be said for here. So I ask... everything and anything. Seemed such cowardice! But I rather ask stupid questions than make mistakes.

So finally I see a bit of result today. The trader recognises me and give credit and pointed that I am quite commercial. Haa! Strange right, to have a trader said I have commercial sense but not the same recognition from my previous ops manager.

Nonetheless, today is a happy day! Yeah! Hopefully the sentiment will last.. Cheers!

Psychosis

Hubby and myself were watching In Cold Blood last night. Yesterday case was about a group of teenagers ganging up against a girl. They locked her up in a flat and abused her, physically and mentally for 17 days. She managed to survive when she finally broke down and threatened to kill herself. The teenagers did not want any more trouble, sent her back home and left her at the void deck.

Groupie effect (hahaa.. my own term), usually one does not have the courage to perform an act, typically wrong act, will have the courage to do so when done in a group. I do not know if these 4 teenagers would have tortured the girl should they be alone. But one thing I do see is that, these teenagers are vicious and probably psychotic! They derive pleasure when they see the girl scared and in pain. Under normal circumstances, if you have accidentally hurt another, you will immediately apologised and would have felt bad. Say, you accidentally scalded someone with hot water, immediate reaction is to apologise profusely and try to ease the pain. You will never be feeling happy over another person's pain, right?

Hubby said psychosis is a mental illness where one is devoid of emotion. They are incapable to feel for others. In fact most serial killers have this mental illness. They cannot feel for their victims and actually enjoy seeing them suffer. But I do wonder, if they are devoid of emotion, shouldn't happiness be out of reach for them too??

So relating back to these teenagers. Does that mean they have mild psychosis problem? They were enjoying themselves torturing the girl, and they are not even doing that out of rage. But I guessed the difference is that they did repent and release the girl in the end.

Food for Thot:
Hubby mentioned that there was an argument, should someone suffering from psychosis, if caught committing crime, perhaps hurting someone however not serious enough to kill or warrant death sentence but you already diagnosed the person from the incurable and dangerous mental problem, should they be sentenced for life? Or be treated like normal and sentence them as per others? Not forgetting, these people have a high risk of killing innocent people and not regret it. What say you?

Mar - A Good Month

Went to see my gynae and also a chinese sinseh. So far most pple had told me to try a couple of more months before I consider another round of IVF. However my inclination to wait is not there? Am I desperate? Hubby and my initial plan is to have a dragon baby and I basically have up to Mar/ Apr to fall pregnant. But is having a dragon baby that important? One consideration is I do not want to have my first child past 35 years old. So if I do get my wish, then I can fulfill both, that is, a dragon baby before 35.

Gynae does have date available for Mar for the long protocol otherwise I will need to wait till Jun/ Jul.

So far all encouragement is to try natural. I wanted to try... this month. But main concern is hubby's ED. Although he said he will try but I think he is too stressed to try. So my guess is that the chance of natural pregnancy for this month before the IVF is not likely, neither will it be possible in the near future even if I decide to postpone.

All I can say now is.. Wish me Luck!

It had Failed Again...

Hubby and myself decided to utilise the frozen embryos in January. This process is much simpler with no need for injections. Just oral medication as well as rectum insets. Anyway right from the day of insemination, hubby and myself did not have a good feeling. Guess our gut feeling is right.

Unlike the last cycle, things went smoothly right from the on-start but it ended with some complications where my HCG level were tested positive but yet not high enough to be confirmed pregnant. In the end, I was simply diagnosed with biochemical pregnancy. So I did fell pregnant, just not strong enough to hold it for long.

But this time, things although were much easier but the good feeling is simply not there. I went through life as per normal. No MC taken in fact especially since I just started my new job in mid Jan.

Nonetheless, I wanted to try another time. Although I will need to face all the jabs and scans all over again, I am willing to try it one more time. However I will not have the luxury of taking long period of MC, so will probably head back to work immediately. Wonder if this will affect? Will check that out with the gynae first, But I hope it's ok and this time we will get lucky and successfully have our kid by December this year. Dragon baby!!!

Good Luck! ;)